Finding Myself: Step 1: Create your own life's timeline.

In my previous post I discussed a website that will aid me in the process of finding myself. The website "How to Find Yourself" provides step by step instructions on achieving this goal.

This brings me to the first step: Create your own life's timeline.

This steps allows me to write down all of my major goals in life that I truly want to achieve. In addition, I also need to write down events that has happened to make me the person I am today. Next, create a timeline with the information you've discovered.

If you don't know how to make a timeline, click here.

In an effort to save paper and time, I decided to use the site X Timeline to create my personal timeline. It's free and easy to use.

Here is my personal timeline:

My Life | View timeline

How to Find Myself

This weekend I went on a camping trip with my ex. We both decided to ease out of the relationship and since the trip was prepaid for, we decided to go instead of cancel. The first day was ok. Everything was going well and we had lots of fun with our friends. The next day I was reminded on why we needed to break up... Bossiness without concern for others. Although I love being with her, this is one of my triggers and we needed to separate immediately. Because of this separation, I missed out on an awesome hike. :(

Today is Tuesday and our first day of no contact. She sent me an email late last night which I just read. I now feel like crying. I have to hold it in because I'm at work and I'm one of those people who don't show any sort of personal feelings at work. So here I am... feeling miserable but faking like I'm not.

This brings me to the title of today's blog: How to find myself?

My first effort in this journey was disabling my facebook account. I didn't walk to "stalk" my ex since I'm unable to see or speak to her and vice versa. It doesn't feel good and makes things harder.

The second step was googling the phrase "finding myself" since I had no idea where to start. Luckily others have gone through this very process and created a site: How to Find Yourself . This gives you step by step instructions on things you can do to achieve the goal of finding your true self. So I'm using this site to aid me in the process of reaching my goal.

June 30 - My New Beginning

Last night, my girlfriend broke up with me. She did it for all the right reasons.... always thinking of others. The night before, I admit that I was thinking the same thing... we should break up. It would seem that neither of us were happy. We kept disappointing the other no matter how hard we tried not to. It would seem that the universe has something else planned for both of us. My heart is broken... I'm in deep pain. I loved being with her.... we just didn't mesh. Right?

I went to the personal trainer last night. This was before seeing my gf. She's hot but for some reason I didn't think of her in the way a lesbian may think of another hot woman... She's cool, funny, in the community.... I hope I lose weight.

This brings me to the title of this post: "My New Beginning". As I said in the first paragraph, my gf broke up with me for the right reasons. The reason: I wasn't ready for a relationship. It's true. I wasn't ready for a relationship and especially not the kind she deserves. I love her but this is an opportunity for me to finally get me time. I don't have anyone else to worry about. I'm afraid and nervous.

This new adventure is a daily blog about my transition from stranger to family within myself. My journey to self-love will surely lead to happiness and this is what I'm searching for... true happiness. Right now, I'm lost.... but I'm sure I will find my way!

My goals are: To find a healthier, happier me!